How God Saved Me Series

My story is that of one who comes from a long Christian legacy […] And although this could have had the effect of numbing me to a true faith, I thank God that he awakened in me a desire to know him and love him.

My husband was feeling all kinds of huge feelings, and I noticed him making some little changes. God actually saved him at our first retreat. So why didn’t I feel anything? Why didn’t I experience this overwhelming change in my heart? Was I not good enough?

I was a single mom for most of my two daughters’ childhoods. It was a long, difficult season raising my girls on my own. For most of those years, I had to work two jobs just to make ends meet. I felt frustrated and sad at times that life was such a struggle. I constantly felt like I would never get ahead of my financial hardships.

I was brought up in a very materialistic environment, which instilled entitlement and arrogance in me. As expected, I got married, had a beautiful home built for us, and started a family. I had it ALL, or so I thought. At least that’s what the world would have thought looking at me.

I was new, all alone, and very sad. During Dad’s sickness, I longed to know God, or at least something bigger than an imaginary Santa Claus. I had no idea how clearly God would answer that longing.